Back to WV on Monday

Back to WV and back to work. Altho I haven't really worked yet and its already 5pm. Talked to my boss about an hour, then Harold stopped in for a long while. He's pretty amazing, doesn't ever react in the way I expect him too, that's probably a good thing since my expectations for everyone and any one is that they will be done with me at any moment. And yet that is so not the truth or reality is it? Geez, look at the long time relationships I've been able to sustain, carry on, have, enjoy... Something inside me keeps me "not good enuff' always. Wish that would be removed.

He may have sold the house.

They are waiting to see where and when the money will come from from the Gov but the $ to continue my position and more is expected. So I will have a job.

I did all my crying in the LV this weekend. Man did I have a faceful of waterworks most of the time I wasn't at Nik's house. No real thoughts, just homesickness and tears.

What a nice party we had Sunday with Deanna in town. And all the love at the meeting was so wonderful. Tea afterwards with Sandie, Chrissie and Roni too and the very end of the day cozy chat with Leslie. God it was a great day. Breakfast with Chrissie, Sitting outside at Dana's with her and Christopher, to Nik's to spend a few hours with them, then the party. My kind of full day visiting in the LV. WOW my life is sooo good.

As always, I am happy/sad. I love my family of Shiners like I love no other family in the world. I love the LV. My cup got filled this weekend. Hope I can hang onto it to a month before it hits empty again. Maybe I can.