got the job and

Got the job. Got the clearance. And got a raise before I even start! I am in awe of how good my God is to me. I am blessed.

Probably putting off the surgery until I have some sick days accumulated.

Done with the bad mood. I hope.
Picked up a new sponsee well someone who asked me then balked at calling me and now she's back more willing. I have so much to learn. Have one who is so sick she is making herself physically ill. Its so sad to watch her suffer and I can't make her better just hold up the mirror.

Went to a mini conference on Sat. 4 speakers in one day. It was good it was overload. It was too long to sit in the car to get there and too many hours to listen intently. But it was good too. So many nice people there and so welcoming to us. 5 of us got in the car. 3 new new comers 1 new comer of 2 years and me. I was so burnt out I couldn't get in their stuff or try to insist they "get" this or that. I am not an expert, just a member in the car.

I got asked to be the AlAnon speaker next Aug up at a retreat for AA and Alanon women. She heard me in May up there. Said they pay for my room and give me a gas card! Nice.

I can't quit. I can't take a break. Thats my disease talkin' I know it. I get scared and intimidated and not good enuff and none of it is anything other than me comparing and judging myself against others. I don't want their program. I can't go to one meeting a week and be ok. I need the fellowship and strong sponsorship. I don't always like it but I need it.

Got hurt that my son doesn't call me back, doesn't call me ever. I have called leaving many messages. I get so squirrelly when I can't get to him or to Helena for so long. She can't call me yet. I called him today at the wrong time and heard his voice tell me he can't talk now he's at work.

Time to call a newcomer I guess instead of trying him again. J showed up at her 2nd meeting last night. She came a few years ago but ditched the boy and picked up another alcoholic this time in recovery and this boy tells her to come to AlAnon--smart boy. She was so interested as well as confused. I loved her pink boots with pointy toes and high high heels. Hell, she's 25, she can walk in 'em yet. So so young. Hope she sticks. Our rooms are pretty old--I hear 50 is an average age.

Have you heard about clean eating? I just read it for the first time, can't wait to learn more.

I do have serious news too about the avaian flu. Its confirmed in Canada. Very scarey stuff. I hope some of us are better prepared than we once were. I know its time to really stock up for when we are asked to social distance and stay out of public places. Hmmm seems to me I remember Mary Christine's pic of homemade canned salsa...wish I had some here...

God is good. Enjoy today.