oh shit

SHIT--simply how I think
Heard it from the AA speaker on Fri nite. She almost had a year. I hadn't ever heard this acnomym before. Fits for me.

As Phil was walking out, I said she did pretty good job for a newcomer. He said he has 12 years and has never spoken. I wonder how come?

Now there's something wrong with my blog and I don't have the patience to fix it just now. Cool fall weather out there. We worked outside some and went for a bike ride. I'm ready for a nap, isn't it bedtime yet?

I got a call asking me to be a speaker for a workshop for Chick to Chick. The topic I got is Grief: An opportunity for spiritual growth. It will be interesting to hear what God has me say that day.

Got a call from V. She asked me to Chair tomorrow night's meeting cause she can't be there to Chair. Ok. We talked a bit. She says how she was gonna ask me to be her sponsor but...

I'm ok today. Nice to be home here in WV for today. Wish I could quick grab a Helena hug and kiss but that will have to wait a coupla weeks.

Been slowly going thru pics that are just piled in a box. SOme are from years ago. Some from 2004. Lots of Nik's theatre stuff. I'm thinkin' of making a scrapbook for him with it all. He started dancing, singing acting when he was 9, quit at 13 because he couldn't take the heat from his peers in school. Oh well. Its how I got involved with theatre, it was fun. Lots of Lonny. So young so alive. And his Dad. NOW I can see the disease I couldn't see at the time. So much sadness. I wonder if it would be smarter to just dive thru the box all at once instead of doing it this way? But I can't seem to get very far when I have to come back to the present. Oh I made so many mistakes. I did the best with what I had at the time. I wish to not regret the past but I am sure glad I don't close the door on it.

Heard my 2nd ex relapsed around Lonny's birhtday in July. How sad for him. I can't imagine the pain he must be in.

Movin' on cause I can't go to bed yet. Nothing I want to do but I sure don't want to watch tv. Wonder if I can get a fire tonite? I know I'll want marshmallows but maybe I can stay away from them, I've been doing well staying off the sugar and processed foods. Cravings have finally stopped, thank God.

ok, really movin' on this time. Hungry again and I think I left a pear in my bike bag.