satisfying saturday
I didn't ever think I could love anyone as much as I do and did my kids. My love in action may not always have been the greatest but my heart was always so full with them. Oh I'm sure I got frustrated with them being the untreated alanon I was but oh how I loved them and really believed that love would be enuff.
But my point is how I love now. Helena fills my soul. She loves me with such abandon.
And Lily when she smiled at me with her eyes. Wow.
I'd heard of 2nd chances. I guess I of course looked for those 2nd chances to appear in ways I would recognize. A kind of getting a chance to do it all over again. But so far its not like that.
I end up remembering my Grandma and her love, care and concern. I don't believe she ever raised her voice to me. It wasn't unconditional or that perfect loving but oh gosh now I can see how sweet and how it came from right down from her toes up and out to me. I know cause I have it now.
Oh how I hope you Thanksgiving was wonderful. Mine has been filled with blessings and abundance beyond my imagining.
*Thank you Christina, it means so much to me when you reach out to me---
Onto the rest of today. Enjoy yours.
posted by Mama Dukes @ 7:02 AM
3 Comments:
It is amazing how naturally we want love to be enough. I experienced this when I was a little girl. One colorful moment was seeing my dad sit at the dining table after him and my mom got in a fight (he was drunk). I asked him from my heart to please stop drinking. He cried and hugged me and said he would. I thought my love was enough for him to stop, enough for him to be filled within.
As with time and program, I too now love different, I love him different.
How blessed those little girls are to have your love today. It is a part of them and will always be a part of them forever. To me this is the greatest gift you can give them, just like the gift your own grandmother has given to you.
So happy you are embracing this Holiday season and life!
Muah!
Thanks for sharing about your grandmother. I hope some day that my grandchildren will remember me that way.
I just want to eat that little girl up! She's everything you've said and more, more, more!
It was sooo good to see you and Nik!
BTW...lunch is all square. No need to worry. Besides, things like that all end up in that great big washing machine in the sky.
Got your lovely b'day card!! You ALWAYS remember and ALWAYS make it special. Thanks. We will be little old ladies together, and still be getting in trouble...or at least talking about getting in trouble :-)
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