traveling on

I'm heading to Beckley this afternoon after my office hours. Be there until Fri when I can head back to here. Job shadowing for 2 full, very full days. My work life full. I am blessed if busy.

Went to AA anniversay meeting Fri nite 61 years. Went to an Alanon anniversary meeting last night. 38 years. If I comment on it I'm not sure I can keep the judgement out. This is the meeting I left after it being my home group for 4 years and being attacked for my saying my last name in meetings when I share. It was a surprise to find my former grief counselor there. A nice surprise. Now I can see where she was getting info about AlAnon besides from me and why she questioned me so about the way I work my program. In general I belieive I was able to hold my head up and do principles above personalities.

Frosted 2 mornings in a row. Already I am suffering from lack of sun. Been spending many days indoors.

OK So Sunday I had no drama, just a bit of grief, some sweet memories, a call to my Mom who was clueless about what day it was for me, church, district meeting, long walk alone and Sun nite meeting. I spoke up aabout what day it was for me in the meeting. It is past. I wondered if I should do some kind of ritual or rememberance of Lonny on his death day but I prefer to consider doing something on his birthday instead. A gift for him as he was a gift for me. I am thinking of trees. Rooted to earth, trunk to hug and hold and branches for the hawks andbirds to light on for the moments. I am thinking trees.

I am going in late to work since I have a drive tonite. I do have to change hotel reservations and work on this damn craft show. I have been asked to join the deacons in my church and to chair a committee of women that I have not even attended one of thier meetings. I said no to each. I shall stay on the committee I am already on until my 3 year commitment of public outreach for my AlAnon district is completed.
In the meantime I am really really shaky about leading the worship on Veterans day. What was I thinking when I said yes? Oh yeah that God would be holding me up and speaking thru me. Ok, I can do it that way.

I am determined to check in on some of you. I pray for you most every day but I sure am lonely for your companionship. Thank you for your comments, you r prayers, your love...