Thursday evening

Back from Washington PA. 2 days of orientation for this job. I only got sleepy once. They sure had the food. Damn it is tough to not get sucked into overeating. I did ok until I got started on those candies, the pink brown and white coconut. They weren't as good as I remember from being a kid eating them but hard to stop from reaching in for another one and another one

Went to the strangest Alanon meeting I've ever attended. Not sure its really an Alanon meeting. No preamble or opening, no CAL literature. They use a booklet someone long long ago put together. It was a discussion group unlike I've experienced. Not cross talk cause there wasn't any kind of meeting structure, coffee klatcsh mostly. So I joined in on the discussion. I was surprised I didn't feel any resentment or bewilderment or anything but acceptance. And gratitude for knowing I'm heading to an AA convention in March for a shot in the arm. Clancy is speaking at the banquet there too. I'm registered, can you?

I had a wonderful time with Debbie at dinner, her house, onto the meeting and then from the meeting to the hotel.

Coming back to Fairmont I could see what a depressed area it is here. Trying like crazy to reach for acceptance but I get so so sad. So many choices in a more metropolitan area. So few options here. Wonder again why God has me here.
DM depressed about $ and his job and lack.

I am needing sunshine. Leslie sent me a card one winter with sumshine, it might be time to stand in front of it yet again.

Ok, I want to know--who are you voting for in this primary? Are you changing your party affiliation? I talked to quite a few republicans lately who are planning to switch to independent. I am afraid a black man or a white woman won't be able to beat a middle aged white republican so I am throwing my hat in Edwards ring.

Meeting tonight. May God grant me courage to accept things I cannot change in this meeting. Its got more structure than the loosey goosey meeting last night. I don't want to go there resigned. Some knees time required me thinks.
Enjoy going to a meeting days