I'm Glad its Friday

How come it is easier to believe and easier to get on my knees when things are going well and my reisistance is so big when I am afraid of what is happening in my life? And I didn't even really know I was afraid. It wasn't denial Hmmm more like I am working so hard to trust and put myself in His Hands and believe. Its hard for me to surrender. To believe I don't have to make something happen or fix it somehow.

But I feel good. No pain. No bleeding. Lost a few pounds. Still nauseous a little. At work and sitting, raining, so I am not tempted to do the many things I think ought to be done.

Some newcomers at the meeting last night. Its a sad 2 person dominated meeting but I keep showing up sharing my ESH and keep praying for the meeting to grow. Got the newcomers numbers. Both of 'em attended 20 to 30 years ago but stopped coming. They came back on a day where ODAT talks about our obligation to give back what we have been given. Do you know the one young woman actually read that page from ODAT and said she culdn't relate to anything on that page? Oh well, its a meeting.

Moving back to the townhouse tomorrow. Big Sigh.
Enjoy your Friday breathing calmly or however you enjoy Fridays