wednesday woes

Trying to be grateful first but I don't know if I can.
grateful for
new haircut
found most of what I wanted at the stores today
the day is almost over
I'm still in Alanon, I still have a sponsor and I still get to live this life in a different way than I ever did before

distressed about
how few talk about the Steps or sponsorship in the meetings, geez you'd think they all do it all on their own, maybe they do

a sponsee got honest with me this weekend and now it looks lik she might fire me but making it about me and my rules---ah well its not the first one to do this--I know its not about me--it asn't me that was hiding and wasn't honest for the last month. I was hoping she'd stick tho I always hope

I'm lonely doing this thing alone here especially after being around so many other women this last weekend who wok so hard at getting and staying sober physically and emtionally

for your support and care while I hurt and your smiles when I don't.