Easter

Gotta find some new traditions for these holidays without kids around.

Just waiting for the time to leave for a meeting. I'm chairing tonite which here means I get to open the doors, set up, chair, and introduce the topic. Everyone usually helps clean up. There was a time I would have resented DOING IT ALL. But today I am grateful to have something to do for my recovery, that there is a meeting on Easter evening. I remember my first Easter in the program, I really do. I remember it snowed that evening too and there were people there to open the doors and give me some hope. Holidays used to be so tough.

So my topic tonite I got from ODAT today and a conversation with a sponsee this morning-- relief vs recovery.

I got relief the first few years just going to meetings. No sponsor, no working Steps, no real service work. But relief was not enuff when Lonny went to jail. I needed more, found my sponsor started working Steps and wha la 6 years later I have more than relief. My whole life is different. i don't just FEEL better. I look better, I live better...

Yesterdays baby shower turned into fun. I loved the games, the fellowship. Last night then we had AA and Alanons bowling birthday party. Not many of us broke 100 and we still had fun. Church was meaningful this morning. I am alive. I accept that someday I will die but I didn't today. I am blessed. I am grateful.

Oh! Helena called me for the first time ever!!! She is 3. It was wonderful.
So much love in such a little body--- pure joy for me.

Life is good, even on holidays.