a sunny Saturday

Sun is out this morning. Hot hazy and humid already. It promises to be a real August day. I am not wanting to take the dog outside. What's that about? I love being outdoors.

No one showed up for dinner last evening. I'm not sure if it was the first time its happened but it sure wasn't a good time for it to happen for me. But I went onto the open meeting and plenty of company there. Picked up new sponsee and BF on the way. Their car broke down earlier. I was glad to get her call for a ride.

Hubby called already, Lily woke him early and they were already playing. I forgot to sing happy birthday to her. I'm certain she didn't notice. She has some serious developmental delays and she is 2. She notices Grandpa to play with and the new toys her took along.

Got some good news that my good friend R is coming down here to speak at the open AA meeting in couple weeks--she's a dual member--she was in AlAnon for 20 years or more before walking into the AA rooms just a year or so ago. Her son is in jail for murder that happened during a drug deal gone wrong. She's got quite a story and lots of ESH to share. AND I get to have her company here for a whoe weekend. Some of the AA gals I pal around with here spent some time with her the last time she was here and asked her to come to speak.

Feels like an ordinary day. No wild mood swings or overwhelming feelings. I'll probably find tears streaming down my face later today. I find that happens fairly often not sobbing not even crying from a deep well of emotion just tears streaming down. I'm so grateful I can allow it today without judgement.

Thursday noon meeting C looked so much clearer and better and I was curious since the phone call the night before she was so miserable. I suggested then that she go have a good cry into her pillow. When I hugged her and told her she might be feeling awful but she looked so good she replied---I let myself cry and feel so much better and even responded better that morning to the in and out of active BF she lives with when he asked for money.

I love how this works. A simple action of allowing her tears and her attitude and actions changed. She didn't ahve to "work on it" or stand on her head.

I love this program of recovery, the people I get to meet, share with and love.