its this damn computer
I was wondering last night why I'm never on line at home anymore. Its this damn VISTA. Everytime I try to get on theres updates or configurations or some shit to go thru and it take 10 minutes to get on. Then I'm out of time and gotta go. I can't do personal stuff at work. I want my old system back! I don't have office I lost my bookmarks I hate this thing. Its slow slow slow. Help!
The worship service went well. People were very nice, there were tears and hugs and God was there. It wasn't me.
I've noticed too that I'm more drawn to church prople these days. I've been participating and doing stuff in Alanon here and it just doesn't ever seem to take off. Others like doing their one meeting a week no I can't do more sorry thank you I'm busy... What is it that so few suit up and show up for God, for others who are suffering? SO many take from the program for a bit then they are better, their life is better they can handle it now then they are gone-- ahhh who am I to judge? I told my sponsor it is lonely doing the deal here by myself--self pity, self righteousness were the character defects she mentioned. I need to stop judging, wanting more, complaining and just go do the deal and someday someone may show up next to me doing it too.
So now its time to go and I haven't visited anyone's blog or looked at my email. I hate this computer and this VISTA.
enjoy your today, Thursday
posted by Mama Dukes @ 7:54 AM
3 Comments:
Hi gorgeous! Sorry to learn of your frustrations with VISTA & some of the Alanons. Glad you yourself are making time for God.
Got to meet Clancy last nite. The meeting was amazing. So much energy and what a type of recovery. I will be going with my sponsor this Sat to his house, what they refer to as "The Yard" to participate in the activities. I am scared to meet new people but am more scared of going to that place I was recently during my relapse.
Love you and am grateful to God that I can see his presence in your soul (even when you are frustrated, hehee! Just makes you human, and how beautiful that is).
MUAH!!!!
Sorry you are having so much trouble with Vista...and as I am reminded OFTEN, I have no control over people, places and things. I'm looking forward to a few days off from work.
As they say in Al-Anon, take what you want and leave the rest. That may be exactly what those who attend the meetings once a week are doing. I am having my own computer issues.......
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