tantruming thru a Thursday
A bit down today.
Lots of reasons I suppose, none of them rational or reasonable.
If I didn't harbor expectations, I wouldn't be disappointed.
I've heard more than once this morning, theres a reason for everything--
I want to know what is the reason, then lets change the reasoning to my way of thinking and what I want-- oh geez--I'm like a 2 year old throwing a tantrum. But seriously, oh no here comes the victim routine, how come I never get my way--
Time to be a grown up and get to today. Contrary actions and all that.
Sun just came out--maybe I can find a way to turn this mood around.
Oh, no secrets--I didn't get a face to face interview, they've not chosen me after the phone interview. Yesterday in a bigger small dirty town of Charleston I heard all the grumbling about this new part time position I have from the other ladies who are doing the job for about a year and it may not be what I thought it to be--
The young woman I've been hoping to help stay married to a newly sober husband kicked him out last night. And the kicker? The young woman cashier at Goody's asked me if I am a senior because she didn't want me to miss out on the discount offered to seniors on Wednesdays. I'm a grandma! Did I think I don't look old? No doubt now
Now, you feel properly sorry for me doncha? Pour on the oh, poor Christine, such a bad day---- DONCHA DARE!!!
ok, done with the self pity wallowing. Warm oozing comfortable shit that it is.
Now onto the day--
posted by Mama Dukes @ 10:04 AM
3 Comments:
Oh those expectations are a butt! My sponsor tells me I need to lower mine and learn to be enough. I try to hard to think my emotions right -- it never works.
I hope that your day turned to be nothing that you expected. In such a case, it is nice to be wrong. That feeling when you wake up and already the "mood" is blocking your spirit. Then as the day begins little but great things happen. Night comes, you reflect on the day and embrace the day's blessings.
We are entitled to feel blah. Heck some self pity here and there is humanizing. Your honesty my friend is captivating!
Those damn reasons hardly ever make themselves known when you want them to, no matter how much you will them to. mmmmm might this be that instant gratification need throwing the tantrum? I throw them alot!! :-)
Hang in there. We got that support system covered.
Love you
I hate that saying..there's a reason for everything. I'm a true believer that sometimes things just happen for no reason at all.
Hope you are feeling more 'up'.
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