really hump Wednesday

Lack of energy. Haven't been sitting in front of the lightbox and its been so so gray outside.
Never the less I have been somewhat ambitious in actions and gotten quite a bit accomplished. No huge tasks, nothing dramatic but what is right in front of me to do. Laundry, thank you's, training, making soup--

I am afraid today. I can't seem to stop thinking in terms of me, all about me, self centered and selfish thinking. Sponsee walking away from sponsorship--its about me wanting her company on this path instead of concern for her recovery. Lonely cause I don't have friends here like KC & Glenn-- Brad is still in ICU and how it is affecting Nik---who has his own HP, I am not it and I cannot protect my child from more grief---should that be the case.

I wanted to go back to bed this morning feeling so sorry for myself. Didn't. Doing what I can to stay on task, focus on today and not could or might be. Everything looks so big when I am physically weary.

onto more of today's tasks and soon the day will end and I get to do another 24 hours on Thursday.