The real thing

We are definitely moving into the townhouse this weekend. I am so ready!!!
But this morning I realized we need to do something about a fire escape thing from the 2nd floor. I've been living in ranches for the last few residences. Its a long way down from this 2nd or do you count it as 3rd? floor.

Speaking of jumping:
I jumped out of the MRI this morning. I talked to my Dr. I really like him. He didn't demean or make fun of me or scold me . He talked to me like I'm a grown up (even if my behavior was more child like than grown up) He just simply said that now that I know what to expect, take the valium and try it again keeping my eyes closed. I'm going to follow his directions and try it again. But not today.

Its about 70 degrees out there today. In January. Its both wonderful in that I hate winter and scarey--global warming have something to do with this? No matter why, I want to go out and play. And be 17 again, young, vibrant, physically active and healthy and and and--WARM!

They changed the lake house closing again and told me I don't need to be there anyway--I am out of town for work on Tuesday--and now I'm mad cause that's what stopped me from going to the Lehigh Valley for the holidays and not get to see Nik or Helena. I could have gone. Let it go Chris, let it go. I'll get up there for Helena's 2nd birthday--2! Wow time flies even when I'm not having fun... that reminds me--we are a glum lot it says in the Big Book--I'd rather be happy joyous and free but I'm mostly not. But I wanna be...