Roll with it

Now there'll be a day, you'll get there baby
You'll hear the music play, you'll dance baby
You'll leave bad way behind, nothing but good times on your mind
You can do it, roll with it, baby
Then you'll see life will be so nice, it's just a step up to paradise
--Steve Winwood

Thank you Kate. I love the song and the quote.

2 questions:
Antidepressants-I choose today to do my best to live life on life's terms without mood or mind altering rink or drugs. Somedays it get ruff but I would rather feel my feelings than not. It s my choice and its not right for everyone I understand that today my way is not the only way. Its not up to me to judge anyone who chooses a different path. Lots and lots and lots of people are going the anti depressant route. Many Dr's hand out prescriptions for them but I believe that its really up to a psychiatrist to make a diagnosis and give out a proper prescription. It is merely my opinion that drug are often the softer easier route, that depending on a higher power and living thru difficult times without altering my insides is harder, way harder some times. But I have looked into vacant eyes and souls and this is merely my choice to feel the full range of emotions with help, love and support of a program anda fellowship. And yes, I have tried it the other way. It did not change my life circumstances and eventually I had to deal with the life postponed.

Ahhh now WV. I wonder today what is my perception of paradise? Well, its not WV. WV lacks many things---readily available culture, good diners, flat land, farms that provide inexpensive fruits and veggies, living wages, my living son and grnddaughter to name a few. I often see the lack instead of the abundance in my life. It will be good when I can accept my insides instead of trying tochange my locations. I do take me with me no matter where I go. WV can be truly beautiful in the spring, summer and when the leaves turn colors in Oct. I tire of the hills that block the sun and the view. I am getting older and afraid I might not be able to do the 5 hour drive to get to Allentown. I am homesick plain and simple. I came here thinking that love would be enuff. I stay here and don't go back to Allentown only because I am not prepared to give up my marriage--he will not move again anywhere except down to the rail But why won't I bloom
here? I wish I had the answer and the cure. I guess I have not accepted life on life's erms here yet.

I do have a wonderul husband and marriage, friends in and out of Alanon, friends and family all over the country, ability to travel, 2 good part time jobs, love and acceptance despite all my moaning and complaining, a nice townhouse, and and and--

Onto the day. I have much to ready. I leave tonite for Ripley to participate in a training there until Thurs afternoon. Home here for Friday then off to Milwaukee for 6 days for a conference for work and I'll get to see some Alanon family there too. Life is good. Enjoy today.