June 14th
Today is my Mom's birthday. No longer estranged after so many many years and still I find it so difficult to be the daughter I'm certain she would like me to be. Happy birthday Mom.
I hated him for many years, blaming him for all my troubles and woe. His drinking affected all of us and I understand from his Mom that he is still active today. Today is his birthday. I can see how my heart really has softened toward him. Doing this recovery deal has given me the opportunity to know I had a part and make amends to him. He isn't communicating with me again but sometimes the best a relationship can be is to smile, say hello and walk on by. But happy Birthday Brad--may you enjoy many more.
May they both enjoy the best of today.
posted by Mama Dukes @ 9:05 AM
3 Comments:
I'm glad you are back...and still standing so strong. Happy Birthday to your mama.
Glad to see ya back, Sweetie. And oh, my, haven't you come full circle now? I can remember a birthday party *seems like life times ago* where we watched the OJ chase down the freeway in CA. I think that may be the last somewhat happy time I remember in your house.
I'm glad you've decided to forgive yourself and Brad and your Mom. Wish I could get to that point with my unhealthies...I think I forgave so many times and got hit upside the head again and again that I've given up on them. I think I'm so much happier without that kind of challenge in my life.
And breathe
Off to Atlanta tomorrow to meet the new princess in my life and to spend my sons birthday with him for the second time in his life. I'm sure it means way more to me than him and I'm monitoring that sap meter big time.
BIG BIG HUG...and I love you!
Happy Birthday to both of them.
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