Tuesday nite meeting

An AA woman who is maybe my friend--she had invited me to last nite's AA meeting. It was the Women's Cirlcle of Love closed meeting that is open on the last Tue as a speaker meeting. The speaker did a great job speaking to the newcomers--so many young women there--

I saw a young woman I had seen in a treatment center some time ago when I did some service there. Told her I was happy to see her and she said she's in the treatment cente again. It was 2003 when she saw me the 1st time. 3 years! Wow--time flies even when I'm not having fun--well I am having some but I've been doing alot of grieving too.

Listening to the speaker I couldn't help but wonder why her? WHy not me? How come I didn't pick up the drink?

Anyway seeing this young woman I'm trying so hard not to call her a girl--reminded me that Lonny's birthday is coming up. I want to do something servicewise--I thought of taking a cake and stuff to the treatment center--celebrating Lonny but celebrating hope for recovery too--he didn't make it but one of them might. I want to do something--I will feel, I will grieve yes I accept the disease as a disease--but I will continue to hope. It could be my granddaughter or someone elses that will need the rooms of AA, NA, OA, Alanon someday--I hope they will always be there with open doors and open arms and hearts--