slow saturday so far
Capricorn
December 21 - January 19For some reason, you may not feel like you are fitting in well with whatever situation you are in today, dear Capricorn. Try not to get too pushy when it comes to your opinion on how things should be done. Honor other people's perspectives and approaches. It may be hard for others to make commitments the same way you can. Their technique is a bit different, but that doesn't mean that it is necessarily any better or worse than yours.
I so often feel like i don't fit in---most everywhere. I work pretty hard I think at just being a part of and the an AA said to me last nite after the meeting 'you've got quite a following'. It took me back. Even tho after he saw the look on my face--he said that's not a bad thing--
But I was happy to have some fellowhip here at my house for dinner, Alanon and AA women. I get so much out of being in the center of the boat--then maybe won't fall out of recovery so easily. And I try pretty hard not to be a leader for others to follow but I suppose that happens when setting an example. Oh well, I did get down after his comment.
Could have added to he memories dredged up in the grief counseling session I had in the morning and the meeting with homeland security people for lunch. I either seem to want out of where I am or seem out of my element. Encouraged but not quite fitting in anywhere.
This morning heading to Family Day. Not nervous yet. No real need to be nervous. Theres just people there hurting like I was and do. Just there to tell em a little about its a family disease and there is hope for family recovery and how they might try putting the oxygen mask on themselves first before they try to put it on their loved one.
I'm suited up, prayed up and ready to go show up to see what God has in store for me today. Have a wonderful weekend and enjoy your today.
posted by Mama Dukes @ 8:58 AM
3 Comments:
It amazes me how much power we give our fears.
When I was reading your post I just could not stop thinking about a paragraph in the 12&12.
From page 116
"When we developed still more, we discovered the best source of emotional stability to be God Himself. We found that dependence upon His perfect justice, forgiveness, and love was healthy, and that it would work where nothing else would. If we really depended upon God, we couldn't very well play God to our fellows nor would we feel the urge wholly to rely on human protection and care. These were the new attitudes that finally brought many of us an inner strength and peace that could not be deeply shaken by the shortcomings of others or by any calamity not of our own making."
Don't ask me why but I just kept thinking about that, so there it is :) I don't know if it applies to anything you said but I figured I should share it if it came to me.
Oh yeah ~ I know exactly how you feel ;)
My oh my...it would seem that those horoscopes have us pegged. And here I thought I was mysterious. :-)
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