Tuesday today

Discovered last night that Earl is still in the hospital and still undergoing tests--but is alright for now. Thanks for your prayers.

It seems the grief fog clears now and then. Its so good when I can think or see clearly but its also a surprise.

Been looking into a masters certificate in communications. Or some kind of community counseling. I wonder if I can concentrate well enuff? I took a civil service test last week. Believe I did well. We'll see. I focused best I could. Will try taking another test this week or next. I've been told to take as many of the tests as I can. Then I can check their openings and ask for an interview. Takn me a long time to submit to this process. I kept hoping and wishing it were different but I'm trying it their way now.

There's a new bookstore opening here in town today. I envy her the ability to have her own store. Not sure it will make it here in Fairmont but it might. I'll sure do what I can to support it. Its such a bedroom community here. People work elsewhere bu live here cause its so much less expensive than Morgantown. Even Clarksburg is getting more uppity in the housing prices.

I'd love to be an independent contractor (I think I know what that means) here since its so darn hard to find a full time not a grant job--theres just so much compeitition for jobs-- The govenor is trying to do what he can to bring in businesses. 'Open for Business' he says WV is. WV only has about a million people total in the whole state. But if you aren't in the school system or a state employee--its tough out there. The service jobs pay so little, not even living wages. Even my husband with his masters and in the school system for many years doesn't make the kind of money other states even nearby make--it is pitiful. But he loves living here and likes being able to work with the kids. Now that he supplements with the massages we do pretty well for now.

So far I've been blessed. I've got 2 part time positions right now. Both granted and its decent $ for what I do. I'd love stability---or would I? I'm old now, maybe I can be done with so much change and be a rooted plant intead of a potted one? Well maybe.

Wish I'd of known when I was 24 what I wanted to be when I grew up besides being a wife and being taken care of. What a fantasy that turned out to be...

Onto today. Today once again, I get to turn people onto to why and how to prepare for a disaster. Enjoy your today!