Almost end of Tues

Brad is conscious altho he is still in ICU there has been much progress. He has a trach now and knows some pople but he doesn't know Nik. But Nik seems to be handling that well. Prayers work.

Time is just flying by--altho this month time has seemed slower than other months--odd--I can't explain it. Its kinda like being a kid and can't wait to be this age or that age, we sure lose that thrill, huh? But time moves slowly when waiting for something. I'm crazy busy without too many minutes to myself or to sit unfocused but I'm getting a bit nxious about how will it be to have Lonny's death anniversary? Will I slide back to being depressed and so sad I can't function again? I guess thats my fear.

Its been so good to feel like a functioning human again. I can actually work at work and work at home and focus on tasks and accomplish. Had another great visiting weekend. And now I see how I have been building relationships here---in spite of my resistance almost. I still find myself wanting to go home to what I knew but

Funny how Nik is now one to remind me that geographic cures don't work if I still have to take me with me. But hey Kace-- I'm thinking lots of good but hilly inexpensive land, compound of good folk, it can be done here ;)

But bbrrrrr its cold here all of a sudden. 30's when leaving the house for the office. Ugh.
Hope it warms up by tomorrow cause I have to wear a skirt for a big deal presentation. Its so incredible to be to be a profssional. I am. I am a professional.

And a mall walker--too cold to walk outside--geez I am professional and an old geezer. I'd rather be the young sexy hippie of back in the day---well til I remember how terribly lonesome I could be then...

Off to redo nails. It sure was weird yesterday when I was driving--5 hour drive for a 5 hour meeting--but I digressed again--I noticed my hands--my hands connected to me but I could have sworn I was looking at Grandma's hands--- so if I can live at least as long as she did then I'll have 28 years with Helena. That sounds just fine, I can be peaceful inside with that thought.
Well, for today I can.