living life on a Monday

Most of the day to myself here in the office except the first 2 hours--lots accomplished and thats so good. Its so good to be able to focus outside myself and my grief finally. I'm grateful.

Met a 25 year old newcomer couple weeks ago and I found i desperately wanted to help her, mentor her and ya know she might not want it or need it. So I changed up my thinking and found myself relaxing into enjoying her company and getting to know someone new. She is sooo smart and so creative. I learned so much from her and listening to her talk to others at the craft show we attended on Saturday. I shared some of me and she shared some of her and it was a rich afternoon.

I'm been excited about being creative. You see I never believed I was or could be. I never enjoyed failing and thats all I could do whenever I compared and judged myself according to someone else's work or craft. I don't ahve to today. Today I just enjoy the process of creating. I give some away and if it ends up in the back of a drawer or displayed prominently--its not as important as it once was. I hope I can live with what sells or doesn't sell this weekend and let it be whatever it will be and walk on---

In the meantime---I'm having fun.

Enjoy your rest of today