taking action
I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand.
- Confucious
Doing what I can to stay out of jealousy, resentment and looking for attention. Still have the feelings but I can take contrary action can't I? I can be gracious about someone getting sober that I wanted sober for over 20 years. I can be gracious that my son has the relationship he has now with his Dad that he's never all his life been able to have. And hope that his sobriety will follow his Dad's?
Action today---
-be grateful son is alive , that his Dad is alive and there is hope for all alcoholics to be sober today
-pray for jealousy be removed
-be grateful prayers work
-do a full day of work for a full day of pay
-chair the Alanon meeting tonite, invite someone to go along, welcome & talk to a newcomer
-stay out of my own sense of drama and stay out of God's way of doing
-work on getting ready for a craft show
-go to Plan B for Thanksgiving
Working on making beads the last few days reminded me of being with my sister a few years ago when I kept insisiting I couldn't do it, I couldn't do what she does and I can't I can't I can't. Well, I still can't do what she does but I can do what I do. I also looked at Gwen's Twelve Beads http://www.twelvebeads.com/index.html and was intimdated by the beauty of her work. But its her work not mine and I love what she does and I am enjoying what I do today. Trying like crazy to stay out of jealousy cause it sure is BIG this morning.
Also saw how dark dark the beads are that I made during the last 2 years while grieving. So the last few days I've been making lighter colored ones.
Onto that days work and pay....
posted by Mama Dukes @ 8:55 AM
2 Comments:
One foot in front of the other. Acknowledging the jealousy and keeping it at bay are good things...wonderful signs of growing and stretching. You can do anything, Sweetie...the past couple of years proves it beyond a shadow of a doubt!
AND your beads are BEAUTIFUL!!!
Just an FYI, I burned the first batch. Put them in the oven way too long.
:-(
Your action plan is pure.
My brother is not an artist of any sort. I am the one that inherited the known artist label -- drawing, decorating, creating visual art pieces. However he works as a finsher, and I see him as an artist. He takes pride in his layout, from start to finish -- from keeping his tools clean to the final presentation. Although he may not feel so I see him as an artist. He creates beautiful work. He is an artist just like me -- we just have different ways to express it. I cannot do what he does.
I am glad that you are now drifting away from dark beads to a more colorful variety -- such that mirrors your honest soul!
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